Picking Up the Paintbrush

In this episode we discuss Kaylee's recent trip, and the insights she learned about her own creative power. In short, she learned that it was her decision to pick up the paintbrush and do what she would with it.

 

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The War of Art by Steven Pressfield

https://www.amazon.ca/War-Art-Through-Creative-Battles/dp/1936891026

Psychedelic Today with Matthew Johnson

https://psychedelicstoday.com/2021/02/02/pt229-dr-matthew-johnson-what-is-consciousness/

 

Show Notes

 

Recent experiences leading up to the trip

• Quarantine and breakup
• Anxiety issues
• The difficulties of reaching out for help
• Embracing emotions as a means of getting rid of them
• Insomnia as a major symptom

Intention - 7:45

• To surrender via the unpredictability of the psychedelic experience
• Psychedelics recontextualize
• The Trip - 9:34
• Coming up was...INTENSE! Surprise surprise
• Going fully into the emotions, embracing them, helped
• School teaches us how to store information in our head
• A green ladder made of perspective
• At its foot, was the material world
• Beginning to separate the label from the thing being labelled
• Ascending the ladder and at its top...CONSCIOUSNESS
• There is a chair somewhere "out there" that you perceive via a mental construction within your own consciousness
• This "out there stuff" was left at the bottom of the ladder
• All mental phenomena, the "in your head stuff," that has ever been experienced was an infinite ocean at the top of the ladder
• Kaylee experienced having access to all beauty and suffering that humans had ever experienced
• Gratitude for being Kaylee
• Freedom from suffering via separation of label and labelled
• But this didn't seem like the answer, it seemed like Spiritual Bypassing
• David Deida...Deyeda?...Deida...yeah Deida...talking about sexual repression as a roadblock to enlightenment
• Living life inside your head
• Needing to escape the day to day
• Yet a sense of dissatisfaction and discouragement with life
• The difficulty of embodying the psychedelic experience
• The ease of not participating in life
• We use our will and our attention to create our reality
• Having access to this experience of infinite consciousness created a feeling of intense responsibility
• The psychedelic experience can be so profound despite the silliness of the symbolism

Analysis and Integration ~44:56

• Taking school more seriously is part of showing up in the material world
• Rather than being cynical about how it isn't perfect, put in the work to make it something you want to do
• You have to put the passion into life
• Being a professional is a choice you make every day, but you have to be one to make it
• The War of Art
• Steven Pressfield interprets the quote, "Eternity is in love with the productions of time," by William Blake
• The Flow state and the universe speaking through people in the creative process
• The courage to create
• Being less in her head by experiencing herself through video and audio recordings
• Not being afraid of herself and being alone with herself anymore
• Giving herself permission to be silly
• Through experiencing yourself as you are, you realize that you really are good enough
• The beauty of self-improvement is that you always get to do more
• Psychedelics help you make yourself better